August 24, 2019

Obesity in America…My Take

Overweight American’s, is it a plaque we put upon ourselves or did society and our ancestors help?  This topic hits home to me.  Just 6 years ago, back in 2005, I topped the scales at 275 pounds.  You might wonder how a 29 year old (at the time) let herself go like that. Well, here is a little background, I come from a 100% Italian family, all there ever is are get togethers surrounded by tons of food.  As a child and teenager though, I wasn’t heavy.  I was a competitive swimmer for 14 years, did triathlons and I loved free weights. It all started when I was 18, in my very first severe car accident that left me bed ridden for 2 years, then at 22, I became a single mother and yet again at 25, I was in another severe car accident that left me fighting for my life and my fiancé leaving me because “it was just too hard on him”.  I went into a deep depression, not caring about the world around me, much less myself and my health.  Then my sister said the words that became my turning point, she stated I lived through two car accidents that should have taken my life, yet I lived to only be killing myself with food.  That was it, I changed everything and in two years I lost half of me and gained so much more! Even through another car accident, this one in my patrol car on duty, and barely surviving it, I have managed to stay at 150 and though I cannot run any longer due to my injuries, I am back to my active lifestyle, even with my chronic pain and Fibromyalgia.

I believe that a little of everything is responsible to the epidemic that is occurring in America, from societies portrayal of what is “fit and healthy”, to genetics, to parents being at fault and lastly to our own loss of self control and will power.  Society can be blamed on both ends of the spectrum, from obesity to eating disorders.  Just look at some of the “role models” put out there from the beginning of our childhood. One example is Barbie, the most unproportionate doll ever made.  Her figure has caused many women to try and gain that figure, some becoming anorexic or bulimic, to having multiple cosmetic and plastic surgery to try to obtain it. Then you have the magazines out there that what you visually see is deemed appropriate health.  No one explains to them the severe crash diets that occur, the plastic surgeries done and even worse, all the computer generated “touch ups”.  So much that is put out in the media has led to eating disorders, abuse of diet pill, and even extreme steroid use.  Genetics play a role also, but more on the health side of things, with being born with traits for diabetes or thyroid disease.  As for parents role in their children’s lives, if they don’t live a healthy lifestyle for themselves, their children don’t know the difference either.  It’s not like they can do the grocery shopping.  Children don’t learn the importance of food choice and daily activity, instead they deal with overworked, over stressed parents who live off fast food, quick and easy microwaveable meals and relaxing in front of TV for activity.

The choice to overeat as adults is strictly on ourselves, it’s a conscience choice we make every time we sit down for a meal.  One issue I see with overeating is the pace in which people eat.  Life is so busy; they squeeze time in to eat, which means eating fast.  Doing so, doesn’t give the time for our brains to register that we are full, instead we just keep eating.  One thing, I know affected me, was I was always told to clean my plate growing up. Well, have you looked at the portion sizes given out at restaurants now?  Some are two or three times the portion size we need to consume at a meal.  I have learned to ask for a “To Go” box when my meal arrives and I put half in it from the very beginning, so I can still “clean my plate”.

A complication that can arise from being overweight is one of Osteoarthritis.  This is when the cartilage and joint bone in the joints wear away.  In commonly occurs in the knees, elbows, lower back and hips.  The reason it is seen more often in overweight individuals is due to the extra weight causing more pressure on the joints. (Pierce)

A disease that can be associated by the type of foods we consume is one of Celiac Disease. Celiac disease has to do with food containing gluten, which is a certain protein found in grains like wheat, barley, oat and rye. This disease affects the small intestine and the body’s ability, or lack thereof, to digest and absorb nutrients.  Symptoms can range from mild to severe, and they can include but not limited to abdominal bloating, chronic diarrhea, fatigue and failure to thrive.  Complications that stem from this disease can be malnutrition, osteoporosis, small intestine cancer, anemia and even miscarriage.

Works Cited

Pierce, G. (n.d.). Ezine Articles. Retrieved 2 1, 2011

So sick of people opening their mouths and spewing garbage!!

I am so sick of inhumane individuals!!! Seriously you all need to get a life and shut the hell up!!

You see, I have been on both sides of the fence. I have been the overweight girl, the one who every guy wants to pretend to be friends with to get close to her “skinny” friends. I have heard ALL the rude, critical comments people can make…from “you’d be soooo much prettier if you only lost weight” to “you will never find happiness or a man cuz you are fat”.

REALLY!?!?!?

And now that I have lost weight and have got healthy…now I get the opposite…sometimes I wonder which is worse!! I had a EX-friend of mine from my heavy days ask me to REGAIN my weight cuz when we went out, she no longer got all the attention (can we say shallow)! I have people tell me now that I am TOO skinny and that I have to stop losing weight to just make others happy (i.e., a guy). Or my favorite…the guys that knew me before, who come to me now wanting to date me! Seriously…get a clue!!

You see, I am the same EXACT person I was at 275 as I am at 145!! If anything, I am MUCH wiser and don’t put up with the BS people dish out!!

This is what I think about people who criticise and down graded the people around them. THEY ARE THE ONES WITH ISSUES!! THEY are the ones who are shallow, have low self esteem and are unhappy!

You see it wasn’t that I wanted to be heavy, but life circumstances got to me. I had 2 serious car accidents that left me in a lot of pain. I also had a really bad relationship that caused some crap too. It didn’t matter if someone said negative crap to me or positively lifted me up everyday. I was stuck in this rut…but I liked it there…at the time I felt safe. Well, then my turning point came. And it came out all on its own and that’s when I realized I needed to start making changes in my life for the better…FOR ME…not for anyone else. Though those changes would start affecting the people around me, the biggest…MY DAUGHTER! She would have a mom who would smile more, a mom who would live a lot longer, a mom who wouldn’t tell her, “sorry I am too exhausted to sit up and read with you” (yes, I really said that)! So I took charge and changed my mindset…NOT THE PERSON I WAS.

I love who I am, I am happy with who I am. I also love who I was because it made me appreciate who I am now. Everyone has their vices in life. You can’t make anyone change…it is completely and utterly UP TO THEM!! Do I have things on my body I would like to “fix”..of course…when u are heavy for 14 years…and lose over 100 pounds there is ALOT of loose skin. But I don’t want to do it for vanity purposes, its more because it is uncomfortable and an annoyance. I could even careless how I went from a 36D to a 34B…I would rather spend $45 on a great bra then $7000 on fake boobs, especially when that money can go to my daughters college education! I am not against cosmetic surgery, nor the people who decide to do it. Again, it is their own choice, no one can make it for them! But if you do it (cosmetic surgery)…own it. Don’t try and pretend or act like you busted your ass to look that way. It’s probably why I love Patricia Heaton, she owns it…she has no problem telling the world she has had work done…that is what makes the difference!

Well…I guess this is enough for now. I will keep doing my lunges and glute work to try and give myself an ass, I will continue to do cardio to lower my body fat and I will continue to be the person I always have been…NOT FOR YOU…BUT FOR ME!!! Keep loving yourself and be true to yourself…in the end it is all that matters anyway!! 🙂

CF TOTAL 1 and a little about weight!!

OMG!!! I can’t flipping believe it….I am so excited!!! So excited I had to call Lauren between my Dead Lift 2nd and 3rd attempt to see what I should go for since I already lifted my PR on my 2nd attempt!!

You see this is why!! If you haven’t been keeping up with my blog…I have been COMPLETELY out of commission for 37 days!! DOING NOTHING…and when I say nothing…I mean just the daily routine of life and nothing else. Which SUCKED!!! I was put on strict orders my my doctor during the procedures I was getting done to PLEASE NOT DO CROSSFIT OR ANYTHING ELSE…to just do daily routine things and when ever possible relax in bed…do you know how much that drove me crazy!!?? AAGGHHH!!! Can you hear me screaming through the computer!!

So here I am only back a week…I have only done 2 Strength Trainings before Kevin decides to put up the CF Total 1, the last time we did it was May 18, 2010…so 2 months ago! So I go to the gym and I am actually looking forward to it…I am being positive…if I hit my old PRs…I will be happy! How can I not after the hell I have just been thru with my hip and back…and here I have to do lifts that are ALL HIP AND BACK!!

So here it goes my CF 1 Total ~ Oh by the way did I mention ~

 I PR’D ALL MY LIFTS ! YES EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM!!!

Deadlift 125 ~ 145 ~ 175
Back Squat  135 ~ 145 ~ 175
Shoulder Press 80 ~ 95 ~ 105
TOTAL = 455
Old Total = 390…up 65!!

Hell yeah!!!

Oh yeah and then I ended with a 5k Bike Time:18:49, I also felt good enough so I just continued biking…not for time. This si the first time my legs weren’t going numb so I just pedaled until they did! I made it 10.4 miles!!! My left leg was completely numb and my right the last three toes were dead and it traveled up the outside of my leg…but oh well, that is the LONGEST I have biked since the accident NON STOP! I know it wasn’t on my TREK and it was on a recumbent bike, but who cares…that is a HUGE MILESTONE for me!!!

Yesterday, I did a mini WOD at home cuz I wasn’t feeling to great…
100 sit ups
200 squats
50 burpees
Time: 14:19

Now on to another subject totally off topic…but something I have dealt with over the 37 days that I was laid up and actually a topic I have dealt with MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!
WEIGHT!!
I am so sick and tired of skinny ass chicks or people who think they are healthy and know what the f&(# they are talking about, trash talking people who are overweight. Do I think there are people who lack desire to change, will power, who want the “easy” way out…yes I do. But coming from someone who use to be 275 pounds (yes I was THAT big)! But also someone who before that was athletic, who knew how to take care of herself, but circumstances of life happened. Don’t pass judgement on people when you never walked a day in there shoes. Instead of belittling them, why not sit down and listen to their story! Take a journey with them…you might actually LEARN something from them!! Do I believe that some people are just plain couch potatoes…yep…but I also believe not everyone is born to have that strong will power in them, or to be able to motivate themselves or encourage themselves. How do you know that those people were not let down by the same type of people you are…why in the world would they want ANYTHING to do with you…even if it has to do with being healthy…to them YOU ARE A BITCH, SNOB, JUDGEMENTAL, SELF ABSORD ASS!!! Hell~I wouldn’t want your help or want to be like you…if your aren’t “healthy” on the inside…I really could careless what you look like on the outside!!

When my light bulb finally went off in 2005..I literally was in so much pain trying to lose my weight. I know I did it to myself, so I didn’t care about the pain I had to go through to get it off…I was going to do it, FOR ME!!! And I did!! I didn’t do it to find a guy, I didn’t do it for my butt to look good in jeans, I didn’t go get plastic surgery to fix shit…I am  natural!! I happy with what God has given me…I will work with what I have and make it stronger and healthier to be around for my daughter and to live a life that I want to live….to fulfill MY DREAMS AND GOALS!!!

I guess some people don’t understand because they have never looked death in the face like I have four times, they have never had to overcome huge obstacles without any help, just all on there own…that is when you grow and learn that life is a blessing…every breath you breathe is precious and it is not guaranteed….so don’t judge someone for their outside…because when you do…your inside shines through and it’s not so pretty!!

Unlike LL…I will NEVER see my AB’s! LMAO!!

Well…I will if someone wants to give me money for my tummy tuck!! But for 12 years I choose NOT to take care of me, to let depression rule my life and listen to doctors tell me just how much I COULDN’T DO! So I turned to food…and slowly my weight creeped up…from 1993, after my first accident til the light bulb clicked Jan 2005…I let myself go and my weight creeped all the way up to 275! After all that time, your skin just doesn’t WANT to snap back. I bet I have a 6 pack underneath, but there is nothing I can do…so when I look at my tummy now…it is a constant reminder to me of where I came from…what I fought for…and where I NEVER want to be again! I went from a size 24 to a size 6 (which I am sure would be smaller if I didn’t have the extra skin). My arms and legs are getting tighter and toner and so is my back. I do have a goal….here it is:
Goal weight: 140-145  (I’m between 148-152)         BodyFat%:  14

So today was MAKEUP DAY for a WOD…I decided to make up my TOTAL since I couldn’t do it because I screwed up my shoulder the day before during a WOD!

CF2 TOTAL=325
Overhead Squat ~ 100 lbs
Bench Press ~ 130 lbs
Clean ~ 95 lbs

Then onto the Strength Work:
5×5 DL @ 75% of 1RM (110 lbs)
5×5 OHS @ 60% of 1RM (60 lbs)
5×5 Clean @ 50% of 1RM (45 lbs)

Felt pretty good today…my left hip was agitiated today, along with my low back…actually it’s been in alot of pain lately, it is what it has been keeping me up. There are soooo many days I just want to stay in bed, but I push myself to get up and push through my pain…pain is sometimes more mental. I get up and take my 17 pills a day to function and pray that the pain subsides enough for me to make it long enough until I can get back to my bed later that day!!!