September 23, 2017

I Was Told NEVER

Never

How many times have you heard it?

I can’t even begin to tell you how many times I have heard it spoken to me, whether by a loved one, a friend, a doctor or even strangers. I even heard it said  in so many different ways!

You will NEVER walk again.

You will NEVER have children.

You will NEVER play sports again.

You will NEVER amount to anything.

You will NEVER make me happy.

You will NEVER know what true love is.

You will NEVER graduate.

You will NEVER get married.

You will NEVER lose weight.

You will NEVER….BLAH, BLAH, BLAH!!!!

And the list goes on and on.

So why am I writing this? Why am I blogging about this ONE WORD? Why do I feel so strong about this?

I am writing about the word NEVER because as much as it can be a absolutely HUGE negative in someone’s life, you can also make it a pretty massive positive, it all depends how you react to the individual spewing the negative NEVER.

Let me explain~

Ever since I can remember I have always had someone telling me “never” and for the longest time…I believed that word for my life. I don’t think people truly know the depths of a wound that one word can make in someone’s life. One of the hardest things I had to overcome was my own mind and what I let others do to it. I remember laying in my hospital bed at age 18, after being told on Christmas Day, that  would never walk again or have children. Merry Christmas to me! NOT! And here is the kicker, I BELIEVED HIM! Why? Because I was 18 and he was a Doctor…well I learned very quickly that just because someone has a doctorate, doesn’t mean they get to decided the outcome of the rest of your life. Imagine if I listen to him and all the other doctors that spoke that word into my life.

TractionI look at this way, my doctors might have told me that I would NEVER walk again (at 3 different times in my life), but that didn’t mean that I had to stop using my legs. In all of us we have the spirit to fight, to buck against the system saying this is HOW IT IS. Yes, they are doctors and they specialize in the trauma that was done to my body, not once but three separate occasions, but that doesn’t mean they know EVERYTHING. Why? Because a doctor is only a person who PRACTICES medicine. (I say this strongly because my sister is an ER doctor and she iss one of my BIGGEST supporters and cheerleaders and told me NOT to listen to ANY Dr that says that word)! There are so many deciding factors on all the “what COULD be” for me! How does a doctor, let alone anyone for that matter, know what YOU are capable of. No two people are the same. So you can have 10 people, all with the exact same injuries, in one room and have 10 absolutely different outcomes of their recovery.

Let me put it this way, just because a doctor told me I would never walk again, didn’t mean I wasn’t going to keep trying to stand and take a step. Just like when I was told I would never have children, would that stop me from getting into serious relationship and staying abstinent for the rest of my life because of what a doctor said!  HECK NO!! Imagine if I did…almost 4 years  to the date of my first accident, I became pregnant and I was blessed with a beautiful baby girl.

Over time I learned to use someone’s NEVER and make it be the driving force to prove that NEVER wrong. Now, I will admit, I might have not walked again, but I would have found a way to walk, it might just have looked different than what people are use too. I might not have gotten pregnant, but that wouldn’t have meant I would have not been a mom. I might have not played sports again, but that wouldn’t have meant that I wouldn’t have found a new sport to fit my life.

I look at life this way…every scar, every battle wound…INSIDE and OUT…make me who I am today…the good, the bad and the ugly…I could have just gave up. Trust me, I get that statement all the time “Sue, if I went through half of what you have, I would have just let myself die”. And they are right, I could have. I could have not fought to regain my life. I could have died on the scenes of my accidents, I could have died in the helicopter or  ambulances, I could have died on the multiple OR tables I have laid upon. But I chose life…as hard as it may be sometimes…I chose ME!!

I am not saying that your life will look like the way society makes you think normal should be…but what I am saying is that you get to decide what your life looks like and you get to FULLY control which way you want your life to go. YOU DECIDE YOUR NORMAL! And I think that is kinda awesome!!

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12 NEGATIVE Thoughts That Are Holding You Back

534091_10151371574735984_1136144810_n-e1355950290748 “If we can’t change our thinking…we can’t change ANYTHING!”

1. There is so much that could go wrong.

Yes there is, but stop being afraid of all that COULD go wrong and start thinking about all that COULD go right! You should always look at what you have now and be thankful for it!!

2. I care what people think of me.

Stop worrying about what others think of you, ignore the rude people who talk about you, why give them that power over you! True strength comes from being wise enough to walk away with your head held high!

3. It will NEVER get better.

Are you serious? Start realizing that it takes baby steps, basically one day at a time. Some days it might be one moment at a time. Start appreciating every great moment that happens and don’t dwell on the speed bumps of life!

4. I can’t trust anyone.

Do you know that most of our true strengths come from the hurts and sufferings we have experienced? We often tend to close our hearts off because it’s not that we don’t trust others, it’s that we don’t trust ourselves enough to believe we can survive another pain.

200131_541886139172168_64377438_n5. My past is distinctive of my future.

Says who…you? So change it, only you can! All mistakes are a part of our growth process; they make our valuable experiences just that much more rewarding! Being defeated is only a temporary condition, it’s giving up that makes it permanent!

6. I will NEVER forgive you.

Guess what, you need to forgive them! Harboring unforgiveness is only hurting you! Look at this way; you should be thanking them for making you strong through the process!

7. I don’t have time to dream.

Want to know what’s worse…having no dream to go after! Remember you don’t have to see the whole staircase; you just have to take the first step! DREAM and DREAM BIG!!!

8. I’ll do what makes me happy…someday.

Forget someday…DO IT NOW! Today is the oldest you have ever been and also the youngest you will ever be, so how can it NOT be the perfect time to pursue your dreams and be happy doing it!

9. I am too unhappy to make anyone else happy.

Did you know that happiness is like a boomerang, just as smiles are too! Usually I find myself happiest when I am doing something that will make someone else happy, no strings attached. Then when you see them smile, it’s hard not to smile back!

10. I can’t. It’s too late. I’m not good enough.

Our attitude is what ultimately determines our journey. Never put condemning words against yourself. There is no can’t, it’s never too late, and exactly what are you not good enough for? Stop putting limitations on yourself!

11. I don’t like them because they’re broken.

Aren’t we all, in some way or another. Remember don’t assume someone is broken because of one moment in their life. Instead be the one who build them up, nurture them with understanding, have a caring heart, and look for the best in them. Leave them feeling a little stronger than before you got there!

12. Everyone else is doing it, so it must be right.

WRONG! Live your OWN life! Don’t hide who you are behind who someone else is. Stand up for what you believe in and never change who you are to FIT into anyone else’s world!

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