September 25, 2017

NO EXCUSES…My Definition Of It

oscar no excusesIf you have been around my Facebook Page or even here on my blog, you know that I use the term NO EXCUSES a lot! I have come across some people who have not liked that terminology and have back lashed at it. So I have decided to take those two words and explain my version behind it!

A good friend of mine, Natalie Jill, says this all the time, “Excuses or Solutions, YOU decide” and I COMPLETELY agree with her (it’s probably one of the reason we get along!). When I say NO EXCUSES, there is so much more behind it. You see, I would say this to myself while laying in a hospital bed or at a grueling physical therapy appointment where I was learning to re-walk AGAIN for the third time (fourth if you count learning to walk as a baby). Let me explain even farther.

There is no silver lining or pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, there is no prince charming or fairy-tale ending, there is no winning the lottery or gaining an inheritance…BUT what there is, is YOU…your choices, your decisions and finding YOUR solutions to every problem that arises. This means in ALL aspects of your life, not just in the area of your health. It pertains to your family, career, finances, relationships, school, etc…you LITERALLY can utilize this term in EVERY area of your life!

you No one in this world will make ANYTHING happen for you, it is COMPLETELY and TOTALLY up to you. It is up to you to make your dreams a reality. It is up to you to see that you achieve your goals. It is up to you if you want to see a change in your health, whether it is to lose weight, lower your cholesterol or blood pressure, or to gain muscle. No one will do the work for you and no one will care about it as much as you do. If you want to be happier, feel loved, feel needed or wanted…well it all begins with you…loving you first! If you are waiting for someone else to do this all for you…you are going to be waiting a very long time, basically you will be waiting forever! So I ask you, why would you do this to yourself?

As you are reading this, do you feel stuck? Are you stuck in a bad situation and waiting for someone to “rescue” you? Are you waiting for that “magic” solution to happen? Guess what, I have your answers!!! Stop waiting! You are your OWN hero, you are your OWN magic solution!! I know you are probably thinking, ”easier said than done, Sue”! And why do I know this? Because before I realized this for myself, I thought the EXACT same way!

How did I get past it? How did I make myself my own HERO? Let me tell you…

No ExcusesIf you want to see a change in your life, you need to be the one to do something about it! If you want to see something get done in your life, then you are the one to do it! If you want better for you, it us up to you to make it happen! The choices you have already made are no one else’s fault but your own. You need to be accountable to these and stop blaming everyone else around you. By doing this, you are able to see where you went wrong, find a better way to do it and move on from it. If you play the blame game, you are constantly stuck in a circle going round and round, instead of climbing your mountain!

NO EXCUSES is a mantra for me. I used it lying in a hospital bed after my doctors told me I would NEVER walk again. I could have laid there and played the “woe is me” card, instead I started planning. I started asking myself questions and FINDING answers to them. One of my first was, “how can I make sure I don’t gain weight while being bed ridden?” my answer, DON’T emotionally eat, still stay as close to clean eating as I possibly could. Another question, “how can I keep as much of my lean muscle as I could”? (I would need this once I began physical therapy) My upper body wasn’t damaged. I had dumbbells brought in to the hospital to do arm exercises. My traction bar had a triangle attachment that I used to assist my nurses with moving me or changing my bed linens, I decided to also use it for pull-ups. “How was I going to remain positive in such a negative atmosphere?” I was going to talk, I wasn’t going to hold in my emotions and let them eat away at my soul or brain.My accident

So bottom line is, I don’t care (and neither should you) about the limitations this world has put on you. If you have a medical issue, your life is NOT decided for you due to it. If you have an injury or recovering from surgery, THESE do NOT control what you decide for you! If you are struggling financially and can’t afford things (like clean eating or going to the gym), read my blog about clean eating on a budget (I’m a single mom, I understand, trust me). As for a gym, the BIGGEST gym in the world is absolutely FREE…it’s called the world; the outdoors is absolutely free for you to get things done!

So start questioning your excuses and stop validating them. Instead start VALUING YOU! Because in the end, YOU are the ONLY one that matters!!!

Update

Well I don’t have much to write about since my doc has taken CrossFit away from me until I see him this Friday!! I had my second procedure and it made things extremely worse!! Both my legs go numb now for absolutely NO REASON and then the weather on top of it has not been nice to me! So I can tell I will be hating summers (w/ rain) and winters (w/cold) for the rest of my life!! So time to suck it up and deal!

I had my 18 month follow up from my accident last Tuesday and my ortho doc put me at MMI (Maximum Medical Improvement). I am as far healed and recovered as I ever will be and that I will NEVER be returning as a deputy! 🙁  But I came to being ok with this almost a year ago!! But it still absolutely sux to know that the dream you had for 14 years and achieved is gone in a blink of an eye!!

As for the rest of my life…I have some HUGE decisions to make regarding my future and financial state for me and my daughter. I had this NEW SPARK come into my life for a new dream/goal…but me being the analytical person I am…things are happening that I might have to leave that dream behind. I am doing a lot of praying and seeing if this is truly what my future is supposed to be! All I know is that I will do whatever is right for me and Adrianna.

I hope I get the ok this Friday that I can restart my WODs come Saturday!!! But I will be doing it just every other day…with maybe a CFE on the off days!!! And gonna start some open water swims!

Negative…trying to turn positive

Yesterday was Series #2 of my procedures that I am doing. The first one didn’t take at all…all it feels like I have someone nailing my left hip and lower spine with a baseball bat and constantly being bruised deeply!! My Doc didn’t like it at all…especially when I usually go into his office with a pain level of 2 or 3 and yesterday was a 5. So we did the second set hoping that it takes. If not, I am all out of options to relieve any of my chronic pain. I just have to start dealing with the level I am at and know that this is it for me.

The thing I do tell myself is, I might have chronic pain, but it just reminds me daily that I am still here. I am still her to be a mom, to raise my daughter. Which is what I was put on this earth to do.

As for other things, I am getting frustrated with my goal and dream…I need to really start refocusing. I need to make a plan and stick to it. This is my future for me and Adri and I have to make sure it is solid!

Unlike LL…I will NEVER see my AB’s! LMAO!!

Well…I will if someone wants to give me money for my tummy tuck!! But for 12 years I choose NOT to take care of me, to let depression rule my life and listen to doctors tell me just how much I COULDN’T DO! So I turned to food…and slowly my weight creeped up…from 1993, after my first accident til the light bulb clicked Jan 2005…I let myself go and my weight creeped all the way up to 275! After all that time, your skin just doesn’t WANT to snap back. I bet I have a 6 pack underneath, but there is nothing I can do…so when I look at my tummy now…it is a constant reminder to me of where I came from…what I fought for…and where I NEVER want to be again! I went from a size 24 to a size 6 (which I am sure would be smaller if I didn’t have the extra skin). My arms and legs are getting tighter and toner and so is my back. I do have a goal….here it is:
Goal weight: 140-145  (I’m between 148-152)         BodyFat%:  14

So today was MAKEUP DAY for a WOD…I decided to make up my TOTAL since I couldn’t do it because I screwed up my shoulder the day before during a WOD!

CF2 TOTAL=325
Overhead Squat ~ 100 lbs
Bench Press ~ 130 lbs
Clean ~ 95 lbs

Then onto the Strength Work:
5×5 DL @ 75% of 1RM (110 lbs)
5×5 OHS @ 60% of 1RM (60 lbs)
5×5 Clean @ 50% of 1RM (45 lbs)

Felt pretty good today…my left hip was agitiated today, along with my low back…actually it’s been in alot of pain lately, it is what it has been keeping me up. There are soooo many days I just want to stay in bed, but I push myself to get up and push through my pain…pain is sometimes more mental. I get up and take my 17 pills a day to function and pray that the pain subsides enough for me to make it long enough until I can get back to my bed later that day!!!

While driving….

So I am just having some thoughts while sitting in the car driving up north for my little mini-vaca and I thought I would put it to paper (or to screen….lol)!

For the past 14 years of my life (from the age of 18 to 32) I had ONE dream…and that was to become a cop. I did everything I could…I fought, struggled, and succeed. And in 10 short weeks after becoming certified my amazing dream and being on cloud 9, became my worst nightmare! I have been living with this nightmare night and day. You see I am opposite, I don’t dream when I sleep…in which, actually I am fully grateful! It is bad enough to LIVE your nightmare throughout the day…so the only time I didn’t was when I slept (which isn’t very often).

Well it was just until I started CrossFit that I finally started refocusing my thought process. I started focusing on what mattered most…ME and MY DAUGHTER! You see, nothing else in this world matters but YOUR FAMILY! I needed to REFIND my happiness! I needed to REFIND Sue! I needed to FIND my flame…a desire again…a NEW GOAL…a NEW DREAM!

And I did!!! I have a desire and a passion…and I am going full force into it! I am praying about it a lot! I have talked it over with the most important person that it is going to affect (my daughter) and she is my NUMBER ONE supporter and encourager!! I have also only shared my DREAM and VISION with a select few…and all are standing behind me AND with me on my NEW VENTURE! I don’t know when this NEW VENTURE will blossom (heck the last one took me 14 years), but I am ready for it when it does!!!

ANDI FLIPPIN’ CAN’T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!