July 16, 2020

Staying Positive AFTER An Injury or Surgery

You might be thinking to yourself, is she kidding, everyone at some point becomes negative during the recovery process! My response to that is, you are ABSOLUTELY correct! We do, it is part of human nature for us, but at the same time, we also have the capabilities to counter act that choice.

Let me give you a little background to back up what I am about to say to you. I am a 37yr old single mom and I should have died not once, but 4 different times in my life. I have been told by doctors at 3 points in my life that I would NEVER walk again. I was told my life would NEVER be the same. I lived through 3 near fatal car accidents, my last being in the line of duty. The other thing that almost killed me was when I contracted bacterial meningitis. I have more titanium in my body holding me together than anyone should EVER have. I have gone through 20 surgeries to date, mostly on my lumbar spine, pelvic and left hip. So now that you know a little about me, let me tell you why I am a SURVIVOR, not a victim!Never believe words of people who have NEVER gone through what you are going through, and YES this includes the doctors treating you! You truly are your own worst enemy when it comes to your recovery! It is just like when we want to hit a PR (personal record), if we go into negatively, we might as well NEVER even try! But when we go into with a positive mindset, it is truly amazing what our minds are capable of putting our bodies through! Another thing about mindset, don’t be a stubborn or a prideful person when you reenter the box/gym. You do this; you might as well have just stayed home! Let me tell you this now and get it out of the way – YOU WILL NOT BE THE SAME PERSON AS BEFORE, throw out all your old goals and make new ones for the person you are NOW!!  Now, I am not saying that you will never get back to where you were, hell you might even exceed all your past PRs! What I am saying is your body has changed, PERIOD! There is no going back to the way it use to be. It is time to start finding out what works for the body you have NOW! This is probably one of the biggest struggles people deal with when in recovery. The second is the time from which the injury or surgery occurred to when you actually get back into the box/gym!

So let’s talk about that for a second, that down time can either be used to play the pity card or it can be used to start formulating a path in which you want to go. Only YOU can make this decision. Only YOU can decide if want to be the “oh woe is me” person or the SURVIVOR! And I don’t care how many cheerleaders you have in your corner, NONE OF THEM can do this journey for you! Matter of fact, there will come a point that if you hear one more positive word out of someone’s mouth, you literally might go insane!

In closing, let me just make one thing clear! An injury or surgery doesn’t define WHO YOU ARE…you do!  I am not going to sit here and tell you that it’s going to be easy, it actually might be the hardest fight of your life, and like me, you might have to fight it a few times. But what I will tell you is not only will it be worth it, but you will be stronger than you have ever been hitting any PRs!!!

So…I had to get back on here!!!

So it has been a very long time since typing a blog! Especially one about myself and where my life is heading!! I was going to start a whole new page, but since I still am the BIONIC WOMAN and all this is a part of who I am…I am continuing on from here!!

So this is me!! I am in such an awesome place in my life right now! God has so richly blessed me!! At the end of July, I had some medical issues that came back w/ all negative results and I got things taken care of! To August, walking away from a dream/goal of mine. Then a month later, finally leaving by dream career in law enforcement. I was a mess, a complete and utter wreck. But over the weeks following all of those decisions and obstacles, God has restored me and shown that through all the hurt, heartache and trials…that He had the controls the entire time…He knew what He was doing…and what I thought was hell has turned into complete heaven!! All the stress and drama is gone…I wake up everyday enjoying my life, loving my daughter, knowing that each day is mine to take and make with it what I choose!! I TOOK MY LIFE BACK!!

So this is it…I am back to my training. It is going slow…but I already made strides in my cardio!! I am able to make it 15 miles on my bike before my entire left leg goes numb and I can go 35 mins on the elliptical!! That may not sound HUGE to you…but OMG…it is a milestone for me!! I got to start strength training again to…starting slow. I am not doing any Olympic lifting like I did in CrossFit (the reason why I took down all my lifting stats), but I am still doing CrossFit body weight work. After all I LOVE MY PUSHUPS!!! I have no desire to train and compete in the CF Games…it would literally wreck my body…I already had issues with my metal, and I never even made it to the intense part of training. And my LIVING my life is so much more important than that! I am going back to my triathlons…but will only be doing ones for charities, not competition. After all, its not about the competition for me anymore…me just finishing one again, is way more of an accomplishment than any 1st place trophy/medal could ever give to me!! When you are told more than once in your life that “You will NEVER walk again”…and you prove them wrong in such a BIG way…your view on things change!
In my blogs from now on, who will read about my life, my journeys, my training, but mostly importantly…you read about how only YOU can overcome YOU! You are your worst enemy, get best that and you are so many steps ahead of everyone else!!
Oh and one last thing…the one thing I have got to sit back and watch and laugh my butt off….KARMA…it always gets ’em…and I never have to say or do anything, they accomplish it all on their own! After all, you reap what you sow!

No where near home and LOVING EVERY MINUTE!!

I will be honest…every minute away from Cape Coral, is every minute more I realize how much I don’t BELONG there!! One day I will leave that place…it is NOT home to me…I need to find MY HOME! I know it won’t be til Adrianna leaves for college and starts her life and that’s ok…right now I do what is right for her and our life.

I want to live a laid back life, I want to walk out my front door and KNOW MY NEIGHBORS! I want to get up in the morning and sit out on my back deck with my coffee after doing my morning WOD and watch Gods creatures in their natural habitat.

I am in a different place in my life…and I know that the next few years are going to be fast paced….so I am prepared for it. For all the trials and obstacles and headaches that will occur. I am ready. Because all the amazing testimonies that are going to come out of it….are going to out weigh all of it!!!

So today I did my first WOD since being on vacation….and from having some medical issues again. I did a light one and my sis did it with me.

3 rounds for time: 7:32
20 lunges
20 push-ups
20 situps
20 dips

Later tonight I am going to do a CFE on her elliptical

I need to do some weight training while I am here but there is NO heavy weights here…so I will be doing some dumbbell presses and swings. So we will see 🙂

“Angie” can go to H…E….Double L!!!

Well I guess I’m blame myself a little on this…I did go give blood before my WOD today. Hey I am O- and we are in MASSIVE shortage here….I have to do my part!!

So then I drove to the gym in the rainstorm!! lol

Strength Work ~
1×20 Power Clean @ 65 (I should have done 70!!! UGH)

The flow of this is getting so much better!! I did all my lifts in complete darkness!! Funny NO ONE ELSE continued lifting…it was like if they couldn’t SEE themselves in the mirrors they couldn’t lift….TOO FLIPPIN’ HILARIOUS!!!

100 Pull-ups (50 w/band&50Jumpin’)
100 Push-ups
100 Sit-ups
100 Squats
TIME : 16:49

My Left Hip is my nemesis…

Well, I just have to realize my left hip will just be my enemy for the REST OF MY LIFE!!! During the Fitness Assessment…I was in tears (LITERALLY) trying to just get .87 miles in 12minutes! And then in today’s WOD I am NOT subbing anymore…I don’t care if I have to walk it….if it says RUN….I WILL be using my legs in some fashion!! Though I already know tears will be flowing! Time to SUCK IT UP!

Strength Work ~
1×20 Dead Lift @ 95 (left really good…definitely could have gone higher in weight, so next time!)
1×20 Push Press @ 85 (I pushed my limits…but only got in 17!! My arms weakened!! UGH!!)

3 Rounds For Time : 22:32
50m Overhead Lunges (25lb plate) (last rd did wide lunges left hip was on fire)
40 Step Ups
400m Run (yes I jogged at 4.6-5.0 pace!!)

Checkout ~
4x30sec Handstand Holds (getting better, but these SUCK!!)

My food is definitely getting better, but I am cutting out more fruit…and adding more veggies and protein. I also IF twice a week, just a 12 hr ones, though I will be doing a 24 hr one if I need to!