January 22, 2018

OMG!!! It’s happening!!! STOKED!!!

The beginning of my new life, my new career is starting. My new venture and journey officially begins Monday!!! I am so stoked, a tad nervous, but I couldn’t be more blessed!! I already have been blessed to live out one dream and passion of mine. Though that dreamed turned into a nightmare, it also was a HUGE blessing in disguise!! My new journey will give me more time with my daughter, which to me is ABSOLUTELY PRICELESS!!

I am also back on a training schedule. I am so blessed to have Amanda, not only be training with me, but encouraging me, motivating me, and praying for me. I always believed that God put certain people in your life for a reason…an awful situation led me to meeting Amanda, and from there our friendship blossomed and I couldn’t be more blessed!!

My life is good and I am loving it…and I love that God let me go through all the obstacles and climb all those mountains, so I can appreciate even the smallest of things!! I recently got out of a really unhealthy relationship, God also showed me that I don’t deserve to settle, that people will say things to ONLY make you feel the way they do. God also made me see that I am going to be having a full plate for the next 2 1/2 years and I need to focus myself and my energy on that and most importantly my daughter. There is NOTHING more important than that!!!

The best ME day!!!

I had the best day today. Did a lot of trail hiking and enjoyed a lunch by the river. Nothing like getting out of the city into the peaceful nature that is never too far!! I hate when I get caught up in this thing we called life…and forget all about the FREE things God has given us to enjoy everyday!! Today was a blessing!!

No where near home and LOVING EVERY MINUTE!!

I will be honest…every minute away from Cape Coral, is every minute more I realize how much I don’t BELONG there!! One day I will leave that place…it is NOT home to me…I need to find MY HOME! I know it won’t be til Adrianna leaves for college and starts her life and that’s ok…right now I do what is right for her and our life.

I want to live a laid back life, I want to walk out my front door and KNOW MY NEIGHBORS! I want to get up in the morning and sit out on my back deck with my coffee after doing my morning WOD and watch Gods creatures in their natural habitat.

I am in a different place in my life…and I know that the next few years are going to be fast paced….so I am prepared for it. For all the trials and obstacles and headaches that will occur. I am ready. Because all the amazing testimonies that are going to come out of it….are going to out weigh all of it!!!

So today I did my first WOD since being on vacation….and from having some medical issues again. I did a light one and my sis did it with me.

3 rounds for time: 7:32
20 lunges
20 push-ups
20 situps
20 dips

Later tonight I am going to do a CFE on her elliptical

I need to do some weight training while I am here but there is NO heavy weights here…so I will be doing some dumbbell presses and swings. So we will see 🙂

CF TOTAL 1 and a little about weight!!

OMG!!! I can’t flipping believe it….I am so excited!!! So excited I had to call Lauren between my Dead Lift 2nd and 3rd attempt to see what I should go for since I already lifted my PR on my 2nd attempt!!

You see this is why!! If you haven’t been keeping up with my blog…I have been COMPLETELY out of commission for 37 days!! DOING NOTHING…and when I say nothing…I mean just the daily routine of life and nothing else. Which SUCKED!!! I was put on strict orders my my doctor during the procedures I was getting done to PLEASE NOT DO CROSSFIT OR ANYTHING ELSE…to just do daily routine things and when ever possible relax in bed…do you know how much that drove me crazy!!?? AAGGHHH!!! Can you hear me screaming through the computer!!

So here I am only back a week…I have only done 2 Strength Trainings before Kevin decides to put up the CF Total 1, the last time we did it was May 18, 2010…so 2 months ago! So I go to the gym and I am actually looking forward to it…I am being positive…if I hit my old PRs…I will be happy! How can I not after the hell I have just been thru with my hip and back…and here I have to do lifts that are ALL HIP AND BACK!!

So here it goes my CF 1 Total ~ Oh by the way did I mention ~

 I PR’D ALL MY LIFTS ! YES EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM!!!

Deadlift 125 ~ 145 ~ 175
Back Squat  135 ~ 145 ~ 175
Shoulder Press 80 ~ 95 ~ 105
TOTAL = 455
Old Total = 390…up 65!!

Hell yeah!!!

Oh yeah and then I ended with a 5k Bike Time:18:49, I also felt good enough so I just continued biking…not for time. This si the first time my legs weren’t going numb so I just pedaled until they did! I made it 10.4 miles!!! My left leg was completely numb and my right the last three toes were dead and it traveled up the outside of my leg…but oh well, that is the LONGEST I have biked since the accident NON STOP! I know it wasn’t on my TREK and it was on a recumbent bike, but who cares…that is a HUGE MILESTONE for me!!!

Yesterday, I did a mini WOD at home cuz I wasn’t feeling to great…
100 sit ups
200 squats
50 burpees
Time: 14:19

Now on to another subject totally off topic…but something I have dealt with over the 37 days that I was laid up and actually a topic I have dealt with MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!
WEIGHT!!
I am so sick and tired of skinny ass chicks or people who think they are healthy and know what the f&(# they are talking about, trash talking people who are overweight. Do I think there are people who lack desire to change, will power, who want the “easy” way out…yes I do. But coming from someone who use to be 275 pounds (yes I was THAT big)! But also someone who before that was athletic, who knew how to take care of herself, but circumstances of life happened. Don’t pass judgement on people when you never walked a day in there shoes. Instead of belittling them, why not sit down and listen to their story! Take a journey with them…you might actually LEARN something from them!! Do I believe that some people are just plain couch potatoes…yep…but I also believe not everyone is born to have that strong will power in them, or to be able to motivate themselves or encourage themselves. How do you know that those people were not let down by the same type of people you are…why in the world would they want ANYTHING to do with you…even if it has to do with being healthy…to them YOU ARE A BITCH, SNOB, JUDGEMENTAL, SELF ABSORD ASS!!! Hell~I wouldn’t want your help or want to be like you…if your aren’t “healthy” on the inside…I really could careless what you look like on the outside!!

When my light bulb finally went off in 2005..I literally was in so much pain trying to lose my weight. I know I did it to myself, so I didn’t care about the pain I had to go through to get it off…I was going to do it, FOR ME!!! And I did!! I didn’t do it to find a guy, I didn’t do it for my butt to look good in jeans, I didn’t go get plastic surgery to fix shit…I am  natural!! I happy with what God has given me…I will work with what I have and make it stronger and healthier to be around for my daughter and to live a life that I want to live….to fulfill MY DREAMS AND GOALS!!!

I guess some people don’t understand because they have never looked death in the face like I have four times, they have never had to overcome huge obstacles without any help, just all on there own…that is when you grow and learn that life is a blessing…every breath you breathe is precious and it is not guaranteed….so don’t judge someone for their outside…because when you do…your inside shines through and it’s not so pretty!!

God knows what He is doing…

God always seems to place the right people in my life…and pulls the ones out of my life at the right times too! I can’t help but dedicate this blog tonight to my CF training partner, LL. Not only has Lauren become my training partner, but she has become one of my dearest friends, listening ear, shoulder to cry on (and to lean on…LITERALLY at times), comedian, encourager, and the person who has kept me sane! In such a short time, she knows me better than some who have been in my life forever. Gods hands were definitely involved in this one!!

I can’t thank her enough for all she has done…and gone through with me!