July 21, 2017

So sick of people opening their mouths and spewing garbage!!

I am so sick of inhumane individuals!!! Seriously you all need to get a life and shut the hell up!!

You see, I have been on both sides of the fence. I have been the overweight girl, the one who every guy wants to pretend to be friends with to get close to her “skinny” friends. I have heard ALL the rude, critical comments people can make…from “you’d be soooo much prettier if you only lost weight” to “you will never find happiness or a man cuz you are fat”.

REALLY!?!?!?

And now that I have lost weight and have got healthy…now I get the opposite…sometimes I wonder which is worse!! I had a EX-friend of mine from my heavy days ask me to REGAIN my weight cuz when we went out, she no longer got all the attention (can we say shallow)! I have people tell me now that I am TOO skinny and that I have to stop losing weight to just make others happy (i.e., a guy). Or my favorite…the guys that knew me before, who come to me now wanting to date me! Seriously…get a clue!!

You see, I am the same EXACT person I was at 275 as I am at 145!! If anything, I am MUCH wiser and don’t put up with the BS people dish out!!

This is what I think about people who criticise and down graded the people around them. THEY ARE THE ONES WITH ISSUES!! THEY are the ones who are shallow, have low self esteem and are unhappy!

You see it wasn’t that I wanted to be heavy, but life circumstances got to me. I had 2 serious car accidents that left me in a lot of pain. I also had a really bad relationship that caused some crap too. It didn’t matter if someone said negative crap to me or positively lifted me up everyday. I was stuck in this rut…but I liked it there…at the time I felt safe. Well, then my turning point came. And it came out all on its own and that’s when I realized I needed to start making changes in my life for the better…FOR ME…not for anyone else. Though those changes would start affecting the people around me, the biggest…MY DAUGHTER! She would have a mom who would smile more, a mom who would live a lot longer, a mom who wouldn’t tell her, “sorry I am too exhausted to sit up and read with you” (yes, I really said that)! So I took charge and changed my mindset…NOT THE PERSON I WAS.

I love who I am, I am happy with who I am. I also love who I was because it made me appreciate who I am now. Everyone has their vices in life. You can’t make anyone change…it is completely and utterly UP TO THEM!! Do I have things on my body I would like to “fix”..of course…when u are heavy for 14 years…and lose over 100 pounds there is ALOT of loose skin. But I don’t want to do it for vanity purposes, its more because it is uncomfortable and an annoyance. I could even careless how I went from a 36D to a 34B…I would rather spend $45 on a great bra then $7000 on fake boobs, especially when that money can go to my daughters college education! I am not against cosmetic surgery, nor the people who decide to do it. Again, it is their own choice, no one can make it for them! But if you do it (cosmetic surgery)…own it. Don’t try and pretend or act like you busted your ass to look that way. It’s probably why I love Patricia Heaton, she owns it…she has no problem telling the world she has had work done…that is what makes the difference!

Well…I guess this is enough for now. I will keep doing my lunges and glute work to try and give myself an ass, I will continue to do cardio to lower my body fat and I will continue to be the person I always have been…NOT FOR YOU…BUT FOR ME!!! Keep loving yourself and be true to yourself…in the end it is all that matters anyway!! 🙂

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On the outside I am full of tats and it's hard to find me NOT smiling.... But on the inside, it's ALL titanium, from 3 severe car accidents that should have taken my life (1993, 2000 & 2008)! I am a living & breathing testimony of God's great mercy here on Earth!! And I'm ready to show this world that NO ONE on this Earth can hold me back from living out what God has in store for me!!!

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